I go by many names, although my favorites will always be His Child, Wife to Michael, and Mama to Hazel.
Everyone else know me as Cara. I am the owner of Rosalie Gwen Paperie, which is named for my own and my daughter’s middle name
MY DAUGHTER, HAZEL
"Bringing Hazel from womb to world was not at all how I expected it would be."
Bringing Hazel from womb to world was not at all how I expected it would be. Now, looking back, I can see how I set myself up for disappointment while pregnant; though at the time I thought I was being very “open” about the whole thing. Ha! We were slow to warm to one another. It was at least 6 months before she really wanted to have anything to do with me, which, as you can imagine, took my mama-heart through the ringer more than a few times
Hazel, unlike any of the babies I had cared for during my fifteen-year stint as a caregiver, forced me to get very honest with myself, thrust into the most uncomfortable of circumstances, in which I had to take long, hard looks at myself and learn to love deeper and stronger, to become the kind of person who Showed Up when she had nothing left to give but a broken and willing heart. It was a humbling, horrific, exquisite time, and I have my daughter to thank for shaping me into a truer version of myself and guiding me toward the realities of hard love.
ONE SPECIAL MEMORY
HER FIRST STEPS
"The first time she walked across the room and into my arms was pretty darn special."
We have only fifteen months together under our belts, but each day is filled with special moments that make me awed and proud to be her Mama. Truly every moment with her is “special” because we are writing the story of us, and even those moments when I want to cry and hide under the bed are special because they are real. All that said, the first time she walked across the room and into my arms was pretty darn special.
MORE ABOUT CARA
I specialize in watercolors, with a focus on florals, which I then turn into high-end paper goods – stationery, gift wrap, fine art, etc… although I am beginning to branch into fabric which is INCREDIBLY exciting! I am incredibly sensitive to inspiration and seem to find it at every turn, an exhausting and maddening trait as I only have so much time to do ALL the things AND keep the bathroom clean. Ha!
I live in Orange County, which is a wonderful and beautiful place, though very surreal in that it’s this tiny bubble of a world where the majority of attention and effort are put into refining appearances and attaining wealth.The pace is overwhelming to say the least, however the weather cannot be beat. Still, there are days when I ache to pack up my little family and retreat to the mountains to eke out a living simply and slowly.